I will be honest in saying that, in the past, I was the one in our home who made things happen. Until recently there hasent been an alpha male. There was Joe and there was me. We have been married for 15 years. Those years have not always been super happy, but we have always made things work. Recently with the enormous amounts of stress we have gone through, I have found that my shoulders are not quite as broad as they once were. I cannot handle everything on my own and I have started to lean on Joe for decisions and leadership in our home. Let me tell you...it is wonderful to come up under his guidence and direction. I, of course, knew it would/could be this way. After all we have taken enough marriage classes in our Bible study group over the years that its has been ingrained in my brain, but it wasnt in my heart. For me to give over even small decisions to him was like pulling teeth and then eventually he just relied on me....just like one of the kids.
I am married to a man who is finding his own within our family after 15 years of marriage. I have Rhumatiod Arthritis and I almost wonder if the Lord didnt allow this to happen in order for me to "have no other choice" but to allow Joe as the head of our home. One never knows...
Blessings!
Cybil
Thursday, February 24, 2011
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
Its only been a year...
I had to remember today that it has only been a year since our son came into our home at the age of 4. I had worked so hard at his reactive attatchment training and when things settled down, so did my training with him. Not smart. I recently started babysitting for an infant and two toddlers who are wonderful therapy for me as I can't have anymore children. My son has gotten irritable and nervous about my "attatchment" to this infant and is reacting. Frustrating!
Smacking my head against the wall!!
So thankful for a call I made to a friend who hooked me up with some extra reactive attatchment training available soon. Thankful that I was able to vent a little and learn a little.
God is good..... I am nothing without His stringth.
Blessings!!
Cybil
Smacking my head against the wall!!
So thankful for a call I made to a friend who hooked me up with some extra reactive attatchment training available soon. Thankful that I was able to vent a little and learn a little.
God is good..... I am nothing without His stringth.
Blessings!!
Cybil
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