Last night I cried....

Last night I cried and I cried and I cried..... I felt myself being pulled back into the awful pain of our adoption process. So frustrating. I thought I had dealt with all the pain, but when it was thrown in my face by someone I considered a dear friend, I realized that maybe I only suppressed it.  I literally wailed as I took a walk through the woods. I just couldn't stop. Today I feel like I am in a fog. Not able to think. I called that friend and apologized for any pain that I had caused her when we adopted our son. I apologized for any pain that they might have had as a result.  I don't know what else to do. I gave my anger and resentment for the way people had judged us and lied about us to the Lord long ago and I harbored no ill will to those people. I just want to go back to bed and stay there. It hurts and I am tired...

Finished!

A few weeks ago I was tagged by a fellow blogger and asked several interesting questions about my kitchen. I wished that I could have answered those questions with pictures to go along, but my husband was in the middle of building a special project for me. Bless his heart, he built me some seating with storage so we could get rid of the many chairs that were constantly clogging the way.

The bench is U shaped and seats lots!

I just love how well it turned out. The kitchen just seams so open and light now. Anyway, I just thought I would share!

Blessings!

Cybil

Patience is tough...

This year the weather has been so tough on northern Indiana. Snow started long before Thanksgiving last year and finally quit just last week. The majority of the snow has been gone for about 3 weeks, but we still have those irritating flurries that threaten my daffodils! I am truly thankful that we have been safe all winter while driving and the house has stayed toasty warm. God is good!

Some of the 30+ patches of daffodils that I have.

THIS is why I love spring!!

I wish I could share some posies with all of you, but for now, this will have to do!

Blessings!

Cybil

Learning process...

Yesterday, for the first time, I went to a grocery store that sells strictly organic foods, healthy chemical free foods and grass fed meats. It was really interesting...and very expensive! I bought a few things to try but I read a ton of labels! I have been under conviction to change the way our family eats. Thankfully my husband shares those feelings. We already grow our own chicken and process them our selves. This year we are also trying turkeys. I have a garden and also put up a variety of other things that are native to our area. I am going to try to grow vegetables from seeds that have NOT been genetically modified. My gardening efforts will be increased this year so that I wont have to pay for any food that I dont need to.

Our nation is filled with processed foods that are eaten up in the name of convienience. Processed foods are filled with chemicals to help hold flavor, hold color, keep food slippery, extend shelf life into the next century and not to mention taste good. We consistantly sit by and allow ourselves and our families to eat things that can potentially cause cancer, birth defects, ADHD, autism and any array of other health issues. So sad!

For my family, I say...NO MORE!! I hope you will also consider a look into the chemicals that your family is eating on a daily basis. The average child under the age of five eats eight chemicals per day. WOW!

Blessings!

Cybil

Trying Something new!

I have been looking through recipes for homemade granola and wanted to add some dried cranberries to my recipe. The ones in the store are generally boiled in sugar water before they are dried and so I wanted a more natural approach. I was suprised to find that I could do this at home with my oven. I simply had to blanch the berries so that the skins popped and then lightly dry them on paper towel. Layer a baking sheet with 3 layers of paper towel and then a layer of parchment paper. I set my oven to 170 because thats the lowest it will go, but 150 was recomended.  I will leave the berries in the oven for 8 hours. I might actually let mine in there over night. I am excited to see what happens. I purchased the cranberries for $.25 per bag at a discount grocery that I go to. I think that makes for a fair prices since I am leaving the oven on for so long.

Blessings!

Cybil

I shouldn't have...

But I did! I made a pound cake today and topped it with strawberries. It was my little effort to get spring in gear. I used 1/3 less sugar  in the cake and very little on the berries. A few weeks ago Meijer had strawberries on sale for a dollar a pound so I bought 25 lbs and froze them. I wish I could share with everyone, but the picture will have to do!

Blessings!

Cybil